Postpartum

I've realized how brief and list like my last few blog entries have been. I feel a little less creative these days. Actually it's more that I'm not taking many moments to savor and reflect (and then write and post). The family has been busy and I've battled my temper. Some days I'm fine, even with a few days being really calm and present but too many days I'm having to scream into a pillow. I think I'm through the roughest of it but am working to further improve my approach/temperament/mood/patience/enjoyment/parenting/partnering... or whatever you call it. Anyway, I do plan to update my doctor in case it is a manifestation of depression or postpartum depression. I was lucky to not battle such after #2. However, after #1 though I started in baby bliss and a new type of energy and focus I then suffered with melancholy/lack of motivation/hopeless anxiety junk around 10 months postpartum (which is considered late onset). My understanding is that more often people suffer from deep sadness and/or anger while dealing with depression. None the less I'm feeling we've rounded the corner yet still plan to consult the doc.